I Still Believe

 Have you seen the movies "I still believe"? It is the life testimony of Jeremy Camp and his first wife who passed away of cancer shortly after they married.

I Still Believe
Jeremy Camp

Scattered words and empty thoughts

Seem to pour from my heart

I've never felt so torn before

Seems I don't know where to start

But it's now that I feel Your grace falls like rain

From every fingertip, washing away my pain

I still believe in Your faithfulness

I still believe in Your truth

I still believe in Your holy word

Even when I don't see, I still believe

Though the questions still fog up my mind

With promises I still seem to bear

Even when answers slowly unwind

It's my heart I see You prepare

But its now that I feel Your grace fall like rain

From every finger tip, washing away my pain

I still believe in Your faithfulness

I still believe in Your truth

I still believe in Your holy word

Even when I don't see, I still believe

The only place I can go is into your arms

Where I throw to you my feeble prayers

In brokenness I can see that this was your will for me

Help me to know Your near

This song often runs through my mind.... "I still believe..."
The last two days have been heavy and emotional. Our hearts miss her so much and the tears come so easily. As a grieving parent, that seems to be the repetitive answer I give to the question "how are you?" You want to be truthful, but you also don't want to be a broken record. My heart can hurt so bad, yet that doesn't change my belief. God is still GOD! He comforts me. I seek him in worship. I cry out in pain. I pray for a sweet balm to allow me to have precious memories with out being brokenhearted.

My scripture today was from Psalms 86: 11-13

Teach me Your way, O LORD;
I will walk in Your truth;
Unite my heart to fear Your name.
I will give thanks to You, O Lord my God, with all my heart,
And will glorify Your name forever.
For Your lovingkindness toward me is great,
And You have delivered my soul from the depths of Sheol.

Sheol is the grave. Death, not physical but spiritual death. God has delivered ME (and you if you are a believer!) from spiritual DEATH by taking our place. He prepares a place for every believer in Heaven. I have a place there. My little girl is there waiting for me. She is in the great cloud of witnesses that surround us. Hebrews 12:1-3 tells us:

1 Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,
2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
3 For consider Him who has endured such hostility by sinners against Himself, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

That's our prayer that we not grow weary or lose heart. I pray Millie's Miracle, her life will be one of the "stars that shine brighter than others"🦋💖🌟

"If one's person's life is changed from what I go thorough it will all be worth it."

Praises:
💕I'm grateful to find quality movies that minister to my heart.

Prayers:
🔹Pray for a restful night. We are so tired and still not resting well.
🔹Pray for friend Levy -she's not feeling well on her chemo. Three years old and Chemo should not be in the same sentence.