We are 49 days short of Millie being in heaven for one full year. This week last year still held promise of things to come. Spring had arrived and new life was everywhere. Our farm had a batch of new baby kittens, a new llama named Hope, and lots of opportunity for Millie to be outside enjoying life. As I glance back through photos tonight I was amazed to realize that even though it is May 21, Millie’s tummy was not swollen. She looked good and felt good for the most part. We were still holding cancer at bay, at least for another few days. How quickly life changes….
In some ways the last year have flown by, yet in others it has been an excruciatingly long time since we have held Millie in our arms. Thanks to our precious videos we can still hear her sweet baby voice, but I wonder what it would sound like now that she would be so big? Many parts of our life are used to not having a preschooler in them any longer, but in the other parts the hole she left is so big that it looms still. A jaggedly gaping hole that says, “a little girl belongs right HERE”. There are huge things that frequently point it out, like the paperwork I filled out today that said list all your children and their ages. There are also the little, insignificant things like a waitress saying, “How many?” and us having to mentally uncount Millie to give the number. Day by day we are still adjusting to her life being complete.
~Day by day we still have to choose JOY.
Blessings sweet friends…
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I still believe in Millie’s Miracle
｡･:*:･ﾟ☆ Hebrews 11:1 ｡･:*:･ﾟ☆
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